Due to my wobble, MacMillan called and recommended I try the two day HOPE course. I was reluctant, it meant sitting in a room with other survivors and being all open. I wanted to know more people who had treatment – but I also didn’t want to be forced to be open or to make … Continue reading 26 November 2021 – Hope Course

So I had a wobble, when I was trying to console my friend who got diagnosed with cancer I did something stupid, I looked on google about cancer survival rates over five years. IT WAS NOT GOOD. So I went in to a tail spin. Maggies were great, but they also recommended because there are … Continue reading 19 October 2021 – Reunited with my surgeon

I had my annual cancer review – a CT scan, followed up with a colonoscopy. I was terrified of the latter, the last time I had the procedure I found out I had cancer –a room full of students staring at a computer screen and me with a tube up my gaping butt, half stoned … Continue reading 13 October 2021 – Annual cancer check

I left Bertie that morning with a friend, a five minute drive seemed like an hour as she does’t like the car and whined, cried and howled during the journey. As soon as I left I missed her, even her needle teeth – I’m starting to look like my hands have fallen in to a … Continue reading 15 April 2021 – Post Cancer Course

My parents came up to visit me for a few days, it was a lovely experience to spend a few days together but without knowing there was a horrible cancer treatment coming. However, the reason for the visit wasn’t me, it was of course the beautiful Beatrice ‘Bertie’ coming home. Honestly, I’m writing this post … Continue reading 08 April 2021 – She’s arrived!!

I took my last chemo pills, what an anti climax – there was no champagne or bubbles, no party. It was actually depressing - I cried a lot – I expected something, a little get together in the garden even. I beat cancer during Covid – I am angry how that will never be acknowledged, … Continue reading 26 March 2021 – the last pills

Bertie’s breeder has been in touch, would I like to meet her this week? We decided on the 25 March, the day before I take my last chemo pills, so it will be a very special  treat. Honestly, Bertie looks like such a snugglebum – I’m in love and also a bit terrified. I hope … Continue reading 23 March 2021 – Pupdate

A strange day….well the start of a weird week, the big countdown to no more chemo. The weird part is the week itself. Exactly one year today the excruciating pain started to develop, who knew where this would lead? Should I have driven to Devon the next day to see the folks on Mother’s Day … Continue reading 21 March 2021 – a weird anniversary

I had an appointment with Maggie’s this afternoon - I caught my counsellor up on recent events such as the Oxalyplatin stopping and chemo nearing the end. We talked about the post cancer course I was going to go on to help me with the next steps of dealing with cancer.  My counsellor is the … Continue reading 19 March 2021